yukisuzuki

Yuki kept crying, it was a lot to take in. She kept remembering about Izzy and Rick. Yuki just kept crying and crying, to the point wear she might never stop. Yuki felt so guilty for lying to everyone, but she had to. She made a promise to Rick that she will keep her safe. The only way Yuki could keep Izzy safe was if she lied to everyone that she never had a child. She had to lie to Izzy and say that her mother died in a car accident. Yuki thought that Izzy would always think that her mother died in a car accident. Yuki is really sorry for not telling Rowan about her daughter, but it was for the best if no one knew that she had a child. 

Yuki walks out of the town of beginnings, she walks back to her spot and sleeps. Yuki knew something was off about today, she was scared something bad might happen today. Yuki thought about Rowan, just the thought of him makes her heart skip a beat and her cheeks heat up to a crimson color. Yuki jumps up into a big tree branch and gets comfortable, she ignores the people around her that are staring at her like she must be crazy. 

Yuki closes her eyes and the image of Izzy pops in her head. Yuki begins to cry, she felt so bad for what she did to her own daughter. Yuki sat up and began to cry into her hands. She was sad, guilty, mad, lonely. Yuki missed both Rick and Izzy, she had to lie about not knowing them. Yuki had to keep Izzy a secret, she couldn't let anyone know she has a daughter. Yuki cried and cried, she hasn't ever cried this much since Rick died. Yuki's mind kept putting memories into her head making her more sad. She couldn't stop crying. It began to feel like would never stop crying. 

Yuki was pushed aside, and suddenly felt the impact of the wall of the cave. Yuki grunts and gets up off the floor, and gets back into position, Yuki hates being this fragile little girl that can't help. Yuki walks back up to the group. "Yeah..." Yuki says a bit to saddened. Yuki looked up and she noticed the sound of wings flapping. Yuki was ready for anything, she knew that if she was close to dying or if anyone else was she could use the health crystal. Yuki used the sound of the wings to be able to pin point exactly where the bat was, well actually just where the wings were. Yuki jumped ahead and slashed on of the bats wings, making the sound of flapping wings louder and louder. Yuki jumped up again and slashed the same wing. Yuki got back down and was in front of everyone. 

Yuki: 78/80 HP, 46/54 EN

Yuki tok in a deep breath before answering to her question. "Iz, i wasn't the person you thought i was then. Me and your dad were people who got into a lot of trouble with other gangs, and mafia's. After he died i left to look for the man who had killed him, i found him after a month of searching." Yuki paused looking at her daughters face. Izzy was quiet so Yuki kept talking. "I- killed him and his men. And then i was being targeted when i was on my way back for you. So i went back home and began to live a normal life so no one expected me to be the killer... Then i was pulled into this game... and here we are" Yuki said with tears dripping down her cheeks to the floor. Yuki put Izzy down, and began to walk holding Izzy's little hand. "I'm sorry i'm not the mother you have always wanted" Yuki said wiping the tears of her face with her free hand. 

"Yes i would love to" She said smiling up a Rowan. She wanted to hang out more with Rowan, she wanted to be with Rowan. Yuki was happy that she finally found someone who loved her. She found someone who she can't be scared of. Yuki is happy, but then she remembers something she wished she didn't. Yuki began to remember Rick, and Izzy. Yuki's smile vanished, and her facial expression showed just a blank face. Yuki was hurt, she remembered her ex and how he died because of her. Yuki followed Rowan into town, quietly. She didn't want to make him worry. Yuki remembered how she left her daughter after Rick died, because sh wanted to get the man who killed him. Yuki wanted that man to be gone because he killed her lover. Yuki will never forget that day, it was very painful. Yuki stayed silent as all of her memories came back. 

Yuki rolled her eyes, and got into a fighting position. One hand on her black hilted sword and the other on the gold sword slanged around her back. Yuki's facial expression changed, to an unknown expression to the others. Yuki put her right foot in front of the other, she bent her knees. She was ready to jump up and stab the son of a [censor]. Yuki moved her head in a circle, for dramatic effect. She had an evil smirk on her face, she was ready to kill this monster. Yes, Yuki knew she was in a difficult situation, but that didn't scare her. To Yuki dying wasn't something that scared Yuki, someone who was just like Yuki scared her. Yuki was ready for whatever might come. 'I'm ready... come and get me you son of a [censor]' Yuki thought, plastering an evil grin onto her face. 

Yuki began to cry as well. She pulled Izzy up into her arms and hugged her. She cried into the nook of Izzy's neck. "I-i'm soo s-sorry" Yuki says between sobs. "I-i had to keep you s-safe" Yuki said, looking at her daughters face. Yuki smiled weakly and rubbed away the tears gently with the tip of her thumb. "I wasn't ready to be a mum then" Yuki explained. "I was in a lot of trouble with other people, and if they knew you were my daughter they would harm you" Yuki said crying more. Yuki was so sad that she had to pretend that Izzy wasn't her daughter. "I-i know... Izzy... I was there w-when... he ... d-di-" Yuki couldn't finish the sentence without crying. Yuki was very sorry for what she has done. Yuki had witnessed her best friends death, her boyfriends death. It was a lot for her, so she left to find the man who had killed rick, thats why she left Izzy. Yuki was scared if she brought Izzy she would get even more hurt. So she left Izzy with Ricks buds. Yuki did get the man, and killed him, along with the mans whole group of people. "I-i'm so sorry i left you" Yuki said crying again. 

Yuki walks out of a tavern to get the same stares from players. Yuki kept a straight face as she walked around town. Yuki was looking for a small shop to just relax in, a lot has happened in the passed week. Yuki was tired, but she still had enough energy to do a 7 mile run. Yuki walked passed a little girl with the same color hair and eyes. This made Yuki stare at the girl. But, when she heard the young girl sing... Yuki knew who it was. 'Iz? what is she doing here?' Yuki thought, she looked around for an adult that might be with her. Yuki was scared, she was scared that Izzy would never love Yuki again, after what she did. 

Yuki followed the group of boys quietly, she didn't listen to Rowan. When they arrived to the caverns, Yuki wasn't scared. Yuki was thrilled to actually get into fights again, she missed it. The last time Yuki fought monsters with people, was with Kashi. Yuki walked into the cave right after Ronin did, she wasn't phased that she couldn't see much. She could see only some features of the cave, she used her hearing to be able to pick up any other movements other than Ronin and herself. Yuki noticed a strange sound. She heard Ronin call out making Yuki distracted. "Shh!" Yuki says behind Ronin. Yuki's steps were very quiet, so no one really knew she went into the cave. "Don't say a word... were gonna get hurt if you make to much noise" Yuki whispers to Ronin. Yuki walks in front of him and uses her listening again.

Yuki frowns, 'why can't i go? it's not like i'm weak.'. Yuki walks up to them, ignores Rowan's demands. "I'm coming... you can't tell me what to do" She says. "It's to boring over here? Are you trying to kill me?" she says, the second part of the sentence was sarcastic. "Don't worry... i wont get hurt. I'm stronger than you think" Yuki says, she is probably more experienced in fighting than Rowan. Yuki knows what she is getting in to, its not like she's stupid. She finished college at the age of 14, and she has been in a war over 5 years between both mafia groups. Yuki won of course, she was a skilled fighter, so she didn't understand why he didn't want her to come. 

Yuki kissed back, wrapping her arms around his neck tangling her hands into his hair again. Yuki felt her face heat up, when he kissed her nose, and her ear. She giggled at when he whispered it tickled her ear. Yuko was pleasered when he kissed her neck. She kissed back when he went back to her lips. Yuki never wanted to lose him, she never wanted him to let go of her. 

Yuki turned around to a man, who had joined the quest as well. "Sure, i'm okay with it" Yuki shrugs, but then she hears the word two, Yuki turns around to see Rowan, Yuki's straight face turns to a small smile. She turned around and went back to her straight face. "Lets go and kick some monsters but, and save a little girl" Yuki smirks and winks at Rowan. Yuki puts her hair into a ponytail, she was hyped up. 

Yuki wondered around town, then she heard and NPC crying about losing her daughter. Yuki couldn't help but feel bad, She walked up to the NPC and the woman told Yuki what had happened to the daughter. Yuki sighed and then calmed down the NPC mother. "It will be alright ma'am... i will find your daughter and make sure she is safe and sound." Yuki said, Yuki had no emotion on her face but her voice showed honesty. Yuki agreed to take the quest and then began to think of a plan to find the little girl and keep her safe. Yuki couldn't help but think about Izzy, she shook off the thought of her and began thinking of a plan again. 

Yuki smiled and looked into Rowan's eyes. Yuki closes the space between them by kissing his lips. Yuki puts her fingers into his hair whilst her arms wrap around his neck. She moves a bit closer to him. She blushes, she was really happy that she kissed him. She pulls away but her face is still close to his. "I-i'm sorry" She says looking down at the floor. "if i made you uncomfortable" Yuki says more clearly.

Yuki begins to worry, she doesn't know what to do. "Y-yuki are you alright?" Izzy asks making Yuki panic more. "Iz', why do you need me?" Yuki questions. Izzy's face seemed to change from her warm smiles to a small frown, following with tears streaming down her face. "D-daddy is ... de-" Yuki stops her from speaking by putting her finger on Izzy's lips. "Its okay" Yuki bends down so they are on the same level, she hugs Izzy. "I know... It's gonna be okay" Yuki says, comforting Izzy. Izzy cried into Yuki's shirt for a while, as well for Yuki. Yuki remembered Rick, and she missed him. He had Izzy when he was really young, around the age 15 or 16, Yuki was there with him as he took care of Izzy. As you might think, is Yuki the mother, not exactly. Yuki did have a child, but she promised herself that she would tell no one since, she was a teen mother, and she was a very bad person. "Before he went away, and died. He told me about you" Izzy says, making Yuki freeze. Yuki might call Rick, Uncle rick but as a joke. He was around her age, and he always treated Yuki like a niece so she would joke around and call him that. Eventually it just became a habit. Yuki began to cry harder, and harder. She held in so many emotions, it just came out in one blow. "S-so you know about me... being your" Yuki asks, not even finishing the sentence. "Yes" Izzy says crying as well. Izzy is around the age 6 now, which means Yuki had her at the age of 13. Yes she was young, but it wasn't like she didn't know what she was doing. 

Yuki kept searching around, she was a bit confused. Everything looked so different, everything looked so strange. Yuki sighed and took a seat on one of the benches, she saw players pass her, she saw a few children walk past her staring right into Yuki's soul. Yuki noticed one child staring at her, the little girl was smiling rally big and ran up to Yuki. "Your Yuki right?" The little girl asked, making Yuki stumble a bit. "I... Uh? H-how do you know m-" Yuki stopped and noticed this was 'Uncle' Ricks kid. "Silly... i-i'm R-ricky's kid" She said. Her name is Izzy and she was one of Yuki's closest people in the world's kid. "Iz' What are you doing here?" She asks worriedly.  She can't be here, she will get hurt. 

Yuki kept searching around, she was a bit confused. Everything looked so different, everything looked so strange. Yuki sighed and took a seat on one of the benches, she saw players pass her, she saw a few children walk past her staring right into Yuki's soul. Yuki shrugged off the stares and got back up and back to the search of the building. Yuki was really confused since everything looked a bit strange, but that didn't stop her. For some reason Yuki wanted to be closer to Rowan, even if he wanted her dead. 'Why does he want me dead anyways? I have enough problems to be worrying about... like Rick's kid, where is she? or... did i kill the person who actually killed my mother' Yuki thought to herself. Yuki kept walking around until she noticed she's been walking in circles. 

Yuki nodded, "Okay" Yuki smiled. Yuki was happy that he said he didn't want to loose her. "I don't want to loose you too" she hugs him and he continues. Once she finished she nods. "Okay" She says still hugging him. She wrapped her arms around his neck, whilst she had to be on her tippy toes. "Thank you" She says putting her chin in the crook of his neck. Tears were forming in her eyes, she was actually happy to meet Rowan. She was also surprised that a while back he tried to kill her but now, its like that never happened. Yuki was happy she didn't have to be alone anymore, she hated it. She wanted someone to find her, and safe her from the loneliness. Yuki wanted to stay like this forever, she never wanted to be alone again, she doesn't want to be alone anymore. 

Yuki looks up at him and smiles, but is also shocked by the item he has given her. "Are you sure? Wouldn't you want this?" Yuki says with a it of worry in her voice. Yuki wasn't sure if he really wanted to give this to her. 'Does he care about me that much?' Yuki wondered. She began to remember how no one cared about her, and would be better off if she was dead. This thought almost made Yuki cry. "Do you really care about me this much?... d-don't you want to keep yourself safe" Yuki asked. Yes, Yuki did love him but she didn't want him getting hurt, and the other reason was no one ever cared about her like that. No one wanted to keep her alive, everyone wanted her dead, even her brother. 

Yuki smiles, and could feel his fingers run through my hair.  "Sounds like a plan" She smiles. Yuki got a trade request from Rowan, so she accepts it. She smiles and looks up at him. "Okay" She says still smiling at the boy, who she confessed to. Yuki looked up at the sky and smiles, she knows her mother is up there somewhere watching her. "Thank you" Yuki whispers to herself and smiles up at the sky. Yuki thanked her passed away mother because she was finally able to let go of her, she was able to become a normal person, able to fall in love. "Goodbye mum" She whispers to herself once again. She looks back down and smiles at Rowan. 

Yuki smiled big and wrapped her arms around his neck. "I promise" She whispered into his ear. Yuki was happy to find someone who loved her, even after that story she told him. "I don't want to loose you either. If i did... I'd probably-" Yuki stopped before she would say it, it hurt to much to spill it out of her mouth. If she said that she might cry again. Yuki let go of him but was still close to him, she smiled sweetly. She looked into his eyes before she looked down at his lips. She looked back up into his eyes and her heart began to beat faster again. Her cheeks began to burn up, as well as her stomach was filled with butterflies. 'Kiss him... Just do it already!' Yuki thought. She nodded to herself and leaned closer to his face, she could feel his breath on her face. 'it tickles, but its so warm' Yuki thought. Her nose brushed against his and she looked into his eyes. 

Yuki looked at Rowan in a new light. 'Yuki you can't hid your feelings anymore... you have feel for him' Yuki thought as she stared into rowans eyes. She was surprised but also happy when she began talking about her, in a good way. Yuki forgot how it felt to be loved, but now she feels like that doesn't matter anymore. 'He loves me?! Yuki tell him how you feel... don't be scared' Yuki thought as her heart began beating faster and faster. Yuki's face was extremely red, and she didn't know what to say. Yuki had many things to say but, she couldn't get it out of her mouth. She gulped, and took in a deep breath. "I- i... l- l-love ... y-you too" Yuki mumbled audibly. She took in another deep breath, before giving in her whole speech. "I- i ... d-don't know why but whenever i'm with you i feel much more safer. Even when you did try to hurt me, i knew you wouldn't... because there was no point too. When y-you kissed me, i knew my feelings for you were real" She blushed and looked down at her hands. She was scared that he would reject her, even if he said that he loved her. She was scared that he would abandon her, she was scared she would loose another person she loved. She was scared for him. 'What if he leaves me? What will happen then? Will i be able to live, since theres not much to live for if he leaves me or dies' Yuki thought. Yuki was never this scared, nor was she ever scared. If she was scared it was probably a fake feeling to show that she does have feelings. 

Before Yuki met Rowan everything was pretty much hard for her. Yuki was on the verge of killing herself. She couldn't take the guilt anymore. She had no one who loved her, all she had was people who came and go. She did not care if they left her or not, all she wanted was someone to love her, care about her, not hate her. Yuki never got what she wanted, she was always alone, and she began to not care wether she died or not because she thought she was wasting her time staying alive. 

She stared into his eyes, his pretty eyes. Everything stopped, time froze and it was only us. The world began to melt and only us were staring into each others eyes. Yuki found someone to care about, Yuki didn't want Rowan to leave her like everyone did. Yuki didn't want to kill herself, she wanted to be with Rowan. 

Yuki went to the starting point that she was given, she was out of the town of begingings. She sighed knowing why he wanted her to have the worst starting point that the other appliers. Yuki walked back into town and womdered around town, she passed buildings that she has seen too many times. Yuki keeps walking around town checking if the building was near her or not. 

Yuki looked into Rowan's eyes, she noticed something strande, but in a good way. He didn't have the anger or the hatred in his eyes that he had when he first met Yuki. Yuki still crying, her heart was pounding like it might jump out of her chest. Yuki looked up with tears in her eyes. As he spoke, Yuki began to blush but also something was making her direct her gaze down to his lips. She stared at them for a few seconds then she gazed back up into Rowand pretty eyes. No one mad ever said such nice words to her, she actually wanted to cry even more. She felt tears for in her eyes again.