[F22-PP-PT] Sorry...

[Sam 0]

Pacing around her house, she has had a lot of time to think. There was so many things that she fucked in her life being in this hell. Very few people spoke to her anymore. Lium was keeping secrets from her and was doing his own thing. Freyd was helping her investigate the woman who killed her friends but the truth was she didn't want to be a part of it. For the longest time she had felt like she didn't matter, like she was forgotten, a lost soul. Being a leader gave her purpose, made her feel like she was wanted, needed. The happier times of her life were outside of this game. The one person in this game that gave her even close to that feeling, she completely destroyed. Her heart aches at the way things ended, even mention that she didn't want to be friends. She really didn't think that she could, that was a bull face lie. It wasn't that she couldn't, she didn't want to. Taking a deep breath she runs to her room and grabs that red sweater. She was unsure if Katoka would forgive her, but she had to try. Whether she liked to believe it or not, that woman was her best friend. Knew more about her then even Lium did which spoke loads. Putting the Kat's red sweat shirt on, with a pair of black fishnet legging, finished with a pair of dark blue jean shorts. Picking up her bass guitar with a deep inhale. Long black hair hanging down,thinking about the song that she had been working on for about a month now. It had to be perfect...

The instrument lays on her back attached to a strap, it was pouring down rain. She did not care, this was something that she had to do. Kat did not deserve what she did. 

Standing outside Katoka's house, she would use the tracking skill to make sure she was in there, but right before she could she saw a light turn on. Her heart skips a beat, it felt like forever since she saw the girl last. Even though it was just a shadow through the curtains, she could not help but smile. Practicing with CC made this possible, made her understand music on a whole new level. Sam had remade her own version of Sorry from JB for this very moment when she had the courage to do this.

Standing in the pouring rain impairing her vision, to be honest, she didn't need it. Not for this. She began to play, at first it started soft but then she started to sing and the strumming got louder with her voice. Tapping on her bass while she continues to play. Sam pours her heart into the song. 

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You gotta go and get angry at all of my honesty
You know I try, but I don't do too well with apologies
I hope I don't run out of time, could someone call a referee?
'Cause I just need one more shot at forgiveness
I know you know that I made those mistakes maybe once or twice
And by once or twice, I mean maybe a couple of hundred times
So let me, oh, let me redeem, oh, redeem, oh, myself tonight
'Cause I just need one more shot at second chances

Yeah, is it too late now to say sorry?
'Cause I'm missing more than just your body
Oh, is it too late now to say sorry?
Yeah, I know that I let you down
Is it too late to say I'm sorry now?

I'm sorry, yeah
Sorry, yeah
Sorry
Yeah, I know that I let you down

I'll take every single piece of the blame if you want me to
But you know that there is no innocent one in this game for two
I'll go, I'll go and then you go, you go out and spill the truth
Can we both say the words and forget this?

Yeah, is it too late now to say sorry?
'Cause I'm missing more than just your body
Oh, is it too late now to say sorry?
Yeah, I know that I let you down
Is it too late to say I'm sorry now?
I'm not just tryna get you back on me (Oh, no, no)
'Cause I'm missing more than just your body (Your body)
Oh, is it too late now to say sorry?
Yeah, I know that I let you down
Is it too late to say I'm sorry now?

I'm sorry, yeah
Sorry, oh
Sorry
Yeah, I know that I let you down (I know I let you down)
Is it too late to say I'm sorry now?
I'm sorry, yeah
Sorry, oh
Sorry
Yeah, I know that I let you down (I know I let you down)
Is it too late to say I'm sorry now?

When the song finished, "I'm Sorry Katoka" she yells over the pouring rain, she could swear that she stops breathing. There was that chance that Kat wouldn't even look out the window, or she would and then shut it. Eyes were watered down, a mess from both the rain and salted liquids. Staring at the window through blurred vision, it felt like time as stopped...

Sam | HP: 900/900 | EN: 128/128 | DMG: 23 | MIT:20 | ACC:3 | AA  | PHASE | EVA:1 | REC: 8 | LD:9 | PROSP:1 | QTY: 2

Spoiler

Sam, The Raven
True Tier: 10
Level: 34
Paragon Level: 58
HP: 900/900
EN: 128/128

Stats:
Damage: 23
Mitigation: 20
Accuracy: 3
Evasion: 1
Loot Die: 9
Stealth Rating: 5
AA 
PHASE
REC: 8
QTY: 2

Equipped Gear:
Weapon/Armor/Trinket: 
  - Bhafel, Decree of War (PROJ-T4-Demonic): Absolute Accuracy, Accuracy 2, Phase
Armor/Trinket: 
  - Raven's Fickle Fortune - Solera:Loot Dice 2, Recovery 2 
Shield/Armor/Trinket: 
  - Anathema's Merit:Quality 2, Loot Dice 1, Prosperity 1

Combat Mastery:
  - Combat Mastery: Damage R3

Combat Shift:
  - AOE Shift

Familiar Skill:
  - 

Custom Skill:
  - 

Skills:
  - Cloth Armor R5
  - Energist
  - Projectile Weaponry R5
  - Quick Change
  - Searching R5

Extra Skills:
  - Hiding R5
  - Concentration
  - 
First Aid R3
Inactive Extra Skills:

Addons:
  - Ferocity
  - Nimble
  - Precision
  - Stamina

Mods:
  - Athletics
  - Surpise Attack: Trickster
  - Tracking
  - Vanish

Inactive Mods:

Battle Ready Inventory:
  - Acolyte's Light (T4-Perfect-Cloth Armor): Evasion 1, Recovery 2 x1
  - Bhafel, Strand of Vengeance (PROJ-T4-Demonic): Envenom 1, Bleed 1, Frostbite 1, Static 1 x
  - Gold Promise - Din's Flame (T1/Perfect):Accuracy 1, Evasion 2  x

Housing Buffs:
  - Basic Kitchen: Increase the effectiveness of a single food item consumed in a thread by +1 T1 slot. This can exceed normal Cook enhancement caps. Ex: A perfect T2 MIT food gives 35 MIT instead of 30.
  - Storage Closet: +1 Battle Ready Inventory Slot
  - Dining Room: Turn 2 identical food items (same quality, tier, & enhancements) into a Lesser Feast. A Lesser Feast contains 4 portions of the food items sacrificed. Lesser Feasts created this way cannot be used outside of the thread they are created. Limit 1 item created per thread.
  - Living Room: Increases out of combatHP regen by (5 * Tier HP) and decreases full energy regen to 2 Out of Combat Posts.
  - Attic (Bedroom): +1 Expertise to declared utility skill. Cannot boost a skill without ranks, or increase a skill past its maximum rank. Cannot boost a skill the user has not learned yet. Ranks obtained using this buff will make the mods of that rank available for purchase. Mods obtained this way are unusable if this buff is removed until the skill is returned to the appropriate rank by way of SP purchase.
  - Fishing Pond: +2 Fishing EXP per fishing attempt
  - Herbalist Hut: +2 Gathering EXP per gathering attempt
  - Basement: Gain +1 to LD, Stealth Rating, Stealth Detection, or Prosperity to one post in a thread. Can be applied after a roll
  - Guest Room: Players can have one «Amenity» in a «Guest Room» and the «Amenity» cannot be recovered. Players are allowed to change which «Amenity» is in the «Guest Room». Multiple instances of the same «Amenity» do not stack. This buff affects the player and their choice of up to two party members.
  - Master Bedroom: -1 energy cost for the first three expenditures of each combat
  - Master Bathroom: The first time you would suffer DoT damage in a thread, reduce damage taken from DoT each turn by 25% (rounded down)
  - Extended Workshop: +2 Crafting EXP per crafting attempt and +1 crafting attempt per day
  - Mega Slime Farm: +10% EXP to a thread. Limit one use per month. Must be used on a player's first post in a thread. Cooldown begins counting down when used in a post.

Guild Hall Buffs:
  - Trading Hall: Reduce LD needed for Salvage by 5 (10+ for Alchemist crystals, 6+ for everything else). +2 EXP per craft. Rank 9 crafters and Rank 4 merchants/performers receive +1 crafting/identification attempt per day. Rank 10 crafters and Rank 5 merchants/performers receive +2 crafting/identification attempts per day.
  - Treasury: +5% bonus col from last-hit monster kills and +10% bonus col from treasure chests.

Scents of the Wild Totem:

Wedding Ring:

Crafting Profession:

Gathering Profession:

 

[Katoka 0]

A day off.

For the past few months all Katoka was put her nose to the grind stone and work. She fought, she explored, she prepared for the next floor raid. Anything to keep herself from being alone with her thoughts for too long. The past couple of weeks she had taken more days to rest. A day here to clean up around the house, a day there to read a book and drink some tea on the back porch. She had even taken time to go do an odd quest with Acanthus and Mari in order to get drunk. Things had definitely gone off the rails with that one. Her cheeks flushed before she pushed that from her mind.

Now she was at home, having just finished cleaning up after dinner. By the sound of it outside rain had began to pour down in buckets and she had been happy that she decided to stay in today. "Time for a shower I think." she said to herself before taking the stairs two a time to get to the top. Flicking on the bedroom light she searched her wardrobe for some pajamas when she heard music from outside.

"What in the?" she walked over to the window and peaked down, her eyes falling on a figure on her front porch. "Who in the hell?"

It was difficult to see but the voice sounded familiar, something about it plucked at her heart the same way whoever it was plucked at their bass. Kat turned and hurried down the stairs, sliding to a stop just before the genkan at her front door. She stepped out of her house slippers and into a pair of sandals and pulled open the door. The girl standing there continued to sing, staring up at her window. She was completely oblivious to the fact that Kat had opened the front door. The blonde felt her chest tighten and heart beat begin to pound rapidly in her chest. Her voice caught in her throat as she attempted to tell her to stop, but the rain was too loud and she was too much of a coward to speak. She knew who this was.

When she finished singing she called up, apologizing. Kat felt her cheeks heat up. Something rumbled in her, an anger forming into something palpable. She knew it was the curse from her sword reacting to her feelings, wanting her to give in to the rage. She pushed it down instead, inhaling through her nose and exhaling through her mouth.

"Sam. Why are you here?" her tone was flat. She sighed, and motioned for her to come inside. "Get in here, out of the rain. You'll get sick."

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Katoka | HP: 840/840 | EN: 118/118 | DMG: 23 | MIT:78 | ACC:5 | EVA:1 | BH:46 | REC: 8 | FLN: 16 | HLY: 16

Spoiler

Name: Katoka, The Cerulean Storm True Tier: 7
Level: 34
Paragon Level: 34
HP: 840/840
EN: 118/118

Stats:
Damage: 23
Mitigation: 78
Accuracy: 5
Evasion: 1
Battle Healing: 46
Stealth Rating: -2
REC: 8
FLN: 16
HLY: 16
Equipped Gear:
Weapon/Armor/Trinket:
- Muramasa's Legacy | T4/Demonic/Katana | Holy II, Fallen II
Armor/Trinket:
- Oni Haori | T4/Demonic/Light Armor | MIT 2, REC 2
Shield/Armor/Trinket:
- Aquamarine | T4 Demonic Trinket | ACC III, EVA I

Combat Mastery:
- Combat Mastery: Damage R3

Combat Shift:
- ST Shift

Familiar Skill:
- Rending Familiar

Custom Skill:
-

Skills:
- Battle Healing R5
- Charge
- Energist
- Extended Weight Limit
- Katana R5
- Light Armor R5

Extra Skills:
- Survival
- Concentration
- Forgotten King's Authority
- Photosynthesize

Inactive Extra Skills:
- Frozen Hide

Addons:
- Ferocity
- Precision
- Resolve
- Stamina

Mods:
- Meticulous

Inactive Mods:

Battle Ready Inventory:
- Crystal of the Blood Dragon Horde | Mass HP recovery 10% x4
- Rhino's Horn | 235487c x5
- Teleportation Crystal x1
- Tincture of Recovery | HP Recovery 15% x5
- Trolls Blood | 235486c x1

Housing Buffs:
- Bedroom: -1 energy cost for the first two expenditures of each combat
- Bathroom: The first time you would suffer DoT damage in a thread, reduce damage taken from DoT each turn by 20% (rounded down)
- Basic Kitchen: Increase the effectiveness of a single food item consumed in a thread by +1 T1 slot. This can exceed normal Cook enhancement caps. Ex: A perfect T2 MIT food gives 35 MIT instead of 30.
- Living Room: Increases out of combatHP regen by (5 * Tier HP) and decreases full energy regen to 2 Out of Combat Posts.
- Attic (Storage): +5% bonus col from monster kills and treasure chests
- Slime Farm: +5% EXP to a thread. Limit one use per month. Must be used on a player's first post in a thread. Cooldown begins counting down when used in a post.

Guild Hall Buffs:
- Trading Hall: Reduce LD needed for Salvage by 5 (10+ for Alchemist crystals, 6+ for everything else). +2 EXP per craft. Rank 9 crafters and Rank 4 merchants/performers receive +1 crafting/identification attempt per day. Rank 10 crafters and Rank 5 merchants/performers receive +2 crafting/identification attempts per day.
- Treasury: +5% bonus col from last-hit monster kills and +10% bonus col from treasure chests.

Scents of the Wild Totem:

Wedding Ring:

Crafting Profession:

Gathering Profession:

 

Edited 17 hours ago by Katoka

[Sam 0]

Out of breath, she hears a familiar voice. The woman asks her why she here she responds "I hate the way things ended like they did." Kat greets her in, she didn't care if she got sick. Maybe she could have chosen a different day to do this but Katoka might have not been home. She knew from the past how strongly the girl felt about it that Kat would be in the next raid. She might not get another chance. "Thank you..." saying in a small voice as she steps in drenched. Seeing her again was a blast from the past but different, the way she held herself. She wanted to ask how she was doing, whats been going on, how the raid planning was going but nothing was coming out. "I made a mistake..." She snaps her fingers and her cloths changed in an instant. Now wearing a shirt that she frequented with a pair of black cloth shorts. Going through her HUD, taking out the red sweater now dried. 

Folding the sweater looking down to Kat. With a sigh, wiping her cheek. She had been waiting all this time to talk to Kat, to explain. "You were right..." leaning against the wall and sliding down. "I..." trying to think about the words that she was trying to get out. She had this whole speech that she was going to give but right in this moment there was nothing. "That day I left, I was in a bad way" thinking of everything that happened that day, her chest was heavy, it hurt. "Losing you, it made me want to..." Thinking about how cold she felt, the raw feeling of emptiness, "Lets just say if Lium didn't find me I would not be sitting her today." Holding the sweater against her chest. "I lost my best friend that day, you..." another tear drips down her face. "I could only be myself when I was with you..." Knowing Lium for all those years, even now she couldn't talk to him about some things. "I wanted to come here and tell you how ungodly sorry I am for hurting you..." Getting up she walks to the counter and sets the folded red sweater on the surface. 

That tension throbbed, she really just wanted to give her a hug but that would be way to much. "I want my best friend back without all the baggage. If you say no I will walk right back out that door and leave you be." She did that once already and she really didn't want to do that again. Part of her wanted her to say it was okay, but she knew better than that. Whether or not she was with Katoka for the wrong reason, she still missed those nights that they would sit there and talk for hours. She missed laughing having fun, the only thing she got close to that was the music with CC but even then it wasn't the same. "I miss my best friend Katoka, please say something..." 

 

[Katoka 0]

She let her talk.

Kat set out a pair of house slippers before slipping back into her own. She took a step into the living room and stopped. All of it reminded her of Sam, it always had. It was why she had trashed most of the house after she left. She brought new furniture and placed it all in slightly different spots but it still was the same. It was why she didn't stay at home as much, why she would distract herself with books and cleaning when she was here. She winced, not realizing she had been digging her nails into her palm. When Sam had almost said that she wanted to kill herself she whirled around, no longer able to hid the anger.

"Don't you dare." she pointed at her, "Don't you dare say that you were going to kill yourself. Don't put that on me."

She felt her hands shaking, her voice wavering, "I did everything for you. I gave everything to you. I loved you." tears began to build up in her eyes, spilling over. "So for you to come here and say that you were going to throw your life away like that? Don't you ever say that to me. I don't care who it is, your life is just as precious."

She stepped up to Sam and lightly shoved her, nothing that would make her fall over or stumble, just just enough to move her shoulders. "If I ever find out that you've killed yourself I swear to god Sam I will haul your ass back from whatever afterlife there may or may not be and kick the shit out of you."

She sobbed. She let her wobbling knees finally buckle and she wailed there in front of the woman she used to love.

When she had finally let it all out Kat, with shuddering breathes, stood back up. "Being around you right now, is painful." she admitted, reaching for a tissue on the nearby coffee table. "But I'm not opposed to trying to be friends again." She blew her nose loudly.

"Maybe just for now we can talk for a bit. Try and... catch up." the whole time she spoke she avoided eye contact. She didn't know if she could look at her without crying again, but that resolve didn't last long when she quickly stole a glance her way.

 

[Sam 0]

Her heart sunk as she listened. The Katoka still cared, it was a good start. "If it makes you feel any better it wasn't intentional..." still so angry now more so knowing what happened. "I fell asleep in the shower with my clothes on from all that happened that day. The water turned cold and my clothes being like ice sent me into a shocking state." She was feeling down and stressed that night, not wanting to get out of the water at the moment didn't mean she didn't want to get out ever. "It was an accident..." a sad look on her face as Kat shoves her a bit. The girl was shaking, she was trying so hard not the run to her, to pull her into a hug. Taking a breath, tears swelled in her eyes to find out just how much Kat cares. It was a mixed emotions, she hated that Sam was here but at the same time she was sorta okay with it.  "I know you did everything for me, because I felt the same way about you. I will never regret loving you." She looked around the room, all those memories soaking in like old wounds. It hurt like hell, burned an almost unbearable flame that hadn't yet gone out.

Looking to her, leaning down a bit to see those eyes. "I need to be honest with you Kat." Walking to the wall next to the front door, she was unsure she wanted to sit down. "I told you I was a huge gamer before this, that was only half of it." Leaning up against the wall face Kat. "Since I can remember I was a guild leader, one to Lium and 3 others. When I came into this game I searched for them for over a year but there was no sign of them. It made me drown and forget who I really was." It was a bit painful to talk about but Kat had to know why what happened between them, happened. "I felt like I wasn't wanted, that no one cared, that I wasn't needed anymore. That state that I was in was when you came into my life." Closing her eyes, a tear drips down her cheek, it was borderline embarrassing to explain. "You filled that void in my heart, in result I fell in love with you for all the wrong reasons. You were mine and no one else could have you not even the front-liners, they were going to take you away from me and I couldn't have that. In turn I was suffocating you because of my obsession." Sitting on the ground now touching her shoulder where Kat nudged her, she missed it, more than she would like to admit. "Like a drug that I didn't want to share..." She truly was broken back then.

Kat had said it hurt for her to be here right now, wasn't that the truth. Pulling her bass guitar out with a cloth, she starts to wipe it down, drying it off. "I haven't done a lot since that day but I did find who I really was again and music." Setting the cloth on her leg, she would start to lightly strum a song from CC's album. "I wish we met when I was like this, maybe things would of been different..." Closing her eyes, trying to break the tension. "How about you Kasumi, how have you been?" A question that she had been longing to ask the day she left.