Hikoru

And spend time with your friends- at least a few of them will probably know how you feel, if you need someone to talk to in person.

Sometimes people will retreat inwards at times like this, and that only makes the feelings worse, because it makes them fester. Like applying a bandaid without cleaning the wound first. So by all means, spend time being productive- whether that means socially, academically or just things that give you leisure. Better yet, you can do all three.

Yeah.... I just.... I wish it didn't have to happen like this.... She texted me during class, and said she was unhappy, for the longest time. and every day I thought something was wrong, and I would ask if she was okay, but she said she was. She said it broke her heart saying it.... SO WHY NOT [censored] TELL ME?!?! I would have done anything for her, anything at all, even if it meant I had to change some things that I was doing. Was I perfect? No, not even close.... But what I had I...

If that's how she chose to treat you, Hikoru, then she was immature all along. We have a tendency to overlook the flaws in our loved ones, but they've always been there. It was selfish of her not to communicate with you, and your heart was in the right place.

So if anything, just take comfort in the fact that it wasn't your fault. Don't walk away from this, thinking that you're any lesser. There'll be time to think- but that comes after you've had some...